elle_23 • 31

Hi

elle_23 is a new member (profile created 2d, 3h ago)

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Cebu City, Philippines
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I'm here to

I'm here to meet guys 30 to 40 years old for friendship.

About me

I'm the kind of person who is quite in large group or in public. I love to think rather than talk. You only see the real me if we're close,i smile and laugh a lot,

I'm not okay, but it's alright. I'm getting used to this feeling. I have been battling with myself behind closed doors— so much that I can't even speak about it to anyone. Maybe I'm just afraid that people might never understand me. Maybe I'm afraid about what they would say if they see me falling down to my knees and being vulnerable. I don't want everyone to think that I am weak, and that they can take advantage of me. Maybe, I never really trusted anyone's intention. I just think that people would just probably ask about what I feel, but they never really care about it. And maybe, all this heaviness that I feel in my chest won't just go away even if I talk about it to someone, so I am bound to fight my battles alone bacause no one can ever help me except for myself.

But I admit, sometimes, I wish I have someone I can lean on when I'm vulnerable. I wish I have someone I can run to whenever I feel like everything is falling apart— someone who will just listen to me and will constantly remind me that my feelings are important.

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