Your beautiful nightmare.
Come closer if you dare.
NihilistAfterDark is a new member (profile created 2d, 5h ago)
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About me
I stopped looking for meaning
in people who were only meant
to pass through.
Some were beautiful.
Some were almost worth staying for.
Most were simply lessons
with better bodies.
I’m not looking for forever.
I’m looking for someone
who knows how to linger
without needing to belong.
Someone I can trust with the dark.
A confidante at midnight.
An online lover with enough imagination
to make distance feel indecent.
I reply slowly.
Not because I’m uninterested,
but because I don’t want to become
just another notification
you answer out of habit.
I want to be the message
you notice even when your hands are busy.
The name that makes you pause.
The conversation you quietly anticipate.
The person whose reply you wait for
without admitting you’ve been waiting.
Tell me what you hide from daylight.
I’ll tell you what only comes alive
when no one is watching.
No rescue.
No promises.
No pretending the universe planned this.
Just two temporary people
with enough longing for the unknown
to collect moments together.
Come closer.
Take your time.
I will too.
Nothing here is sacred.
Nothing is guaranteed.
But perhaps that is what makes it beautiful
to become, for a little while,
the person someone waits for
in a world that teaches us
to expect nothing
and forget everyone.
And maybe,
for once,
we can be the exception
we never promised to become.
About you
I’m not looking for forever.
Honestly, forever sounds exhausting.
I want someone I can talk to at 3 a.m.
Someone I can tell the ugly things to
without having to make them sound beautiful first.
An online lover.
A confidante.
A stranger who slowly becomes familiar
without either of us having to ruin it
by calling it a relationship.
For now, online is enough.
But if you’re the kind of man
who gets curious enough to cross the distance,
then be sure you understand what you’re walking into.
